“I'm just asking him (God) why right now. It’s little kids.”
Emilie Kiser has shared her first public statement since the death of her 3-year-old son Trigg Kiser.
“Loss of this magnitude feels impossible to put into words. I've spent days, weeks, months trying to find them and also take the time I've needed to digest the loss of my baby,” Emilie began her statement.
“Trigg is our baby and our best friend,” she continued. “The light and spirit he brought into this world was bright, pure, joyful, and undeniable. We miss him every second of every day and continuing forward often feels unbearable.”
Trigg died on May 18, six days after he was discovered in his family’s pool in his backyard.
“I never thought we would experience grief in this way or the pain of losing him so suddenly. It's a pain, heartache, and void that no family should ever have to endure. I take full accountability as Trigg's mother, and I know I should have done more to protect him,” Emilie wrote in the statement she shared on Instagram on Thursday, August 28.
“One of the hardest lessons I carry is that a permanent pool fence could have saved his life, and it's something I will never overlook again. I hope amidst this pain, Trigg's story will help prevent other children and families from suffering the same loss.”
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Emilie then shared a personal message to her family, writing that she and her husband, Brady Kiser, who was with Trigg during the immediate moments of the tragedy, “would not be getting through this without you.”
“The support you have given us, the unconditional love, and the way you show up is something we will never be able to repay or thank you enough for. We truly have the best and most supportive friends and family who have, quite literally, carried us through this and continue to do so daily.”
Emilie then addressed the millions of people who have followed her on social media for the last several years.
“To my audience and the people who have supported us: I cannot thank you enough for the kind messages I have received, for the outpouring of love for our family, and for the support you have brought to me in these extremely tough times.”
“The only way through grief is to keep going minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, and every moment since that day I've done my best to keep picking myself up,” Emilie continued.
“When I started on social media in 2021 as a new mom, my goal was to connect with other moms and find a community. I have found that and so much more through all of you. I found a community, a hobby I love, and a job I am so grateful for. I have always been my authentic self on social media and tried my best to share my everyday life honestly, while also being mindful of what I didn't choose to share.”
Emilie continued, saying that she has now “seen through this tragedy how relationships online lack boundaries, especially in protecting children's privacy. Moving forward, I will be establishing more boundaries with what I share online.”
“In the future, I hope to be in a place to share more about how I am navigating this grief, but right now, all I can say is thank you for the love, compassion, patience and space you've given us to grieve. I am more grateful for it than can ever be expressed.”
