"I went into labor and I labored for a few hours. No epidural, nothing.”
During the latest episode of her podcast, “Calm Down with Erin and Charissa,” Erin Andrews shared some personal and emotional news with their listeners.
Two years after welcoming their first child into the world via a surrogate, Andrews and her husband, former NHL star Jarret Stoll, were expecting their second child via a surrogate again.
However, as Andrews revealed in the May 22 episode of the podcast, she and Stoll learned the morning of recording the episode that their surrogate had miscarried.
“I have dealt with this before,” Andrews shared through her tears. “Things were going really, really well. Her little heartbeat and her numbers were really good. So much so, I even told you guys a couple weeks ago because we thought we had such good news.”
Andrews said she considered not recording the podcast in order to grieve with her family, but added that work is “such a great safe space” for her during times like this.
“I'm also really, really good at suppressing my feelings, and work really helped me with that,” Andrews explained. “So I think one of the things I'm so sad about is I'm gonna have to do a better job with dealing with my feelings with this, because the last time we had such a loss, I didn't and I suffered with it.”
The sports reporter added that while recording the podcast, she was “thinking about Taylor Swift song, ‘I Can Do It with a Broken Heart.’ I'm really good at doing this with a broken heart.”
But for Andrews, who is a cervical cancer survivor, it’s important for her to be open about how difficult infertility has been.
“You know, our journeys with two surrogates, because we did lose. We had lost with our first surrogate, and then luckily, with our second one, we had Mack,” her and Stoll’s almost 2-year-old son who was born June 28, 2023.
“It’s really, really hard. I just said that to one of my girlfriends down there, down in my office, when I told her, she's like, ‘God, it's so freaking hard to have a baby.’ So I decided I would be honest about this,” Andrews continued.
While a guest on “Today with Jenna and Friend,” Andrews opened up about her decade long struggle with infertility, calling it “10 years of hell.”
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“People, you have no idea what they're dealing with, and people deal more with loss than they do with the reward,” Andrews continued on the podcast.
“I know my husband's having a difficult time, and I'm gonna go home and be with him. Then we're gonna throw our little two year old in a pool, and I feel like squeezes are gonna feel a little different from him today.”
