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If you’ve ever held your breath while waiting for test results, felt your heart race at every doctor’s appointment, or whispered quiet prayers that this time would be different—you are not alone.
The journey through pregnancy loss and the courage it takes to try again is one that millions of women understand intimately, even if they rarely speak of it aloud.
Fitness influencer and model Sanne Vloet is now using her platform to break that silence, sharing her experience of losing two pregnancies in just four months in hopes of reaching other women walking the same painful path.
Sanne Vloet’s Christmas surprise was shadowed by fear
On Feb. 6, Vloet took to Instagram to share a poem she had written on Christmas Day after discovering she was pregnant for a second time.
The poem, titled “The Test I Almost Didn’t Take,” captures the complicated emotional landscape that anyone who has experienced pregnancy loss knows all too well—that delicate balance between hope and self-protection.
“Pregnancy loss is never easy…. sharing this with an open heart <3,” she wrote in the caption.
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In her poem, Vloet described the moment of discovery with raw honesty.
“A friend asked if we were trying again. I laughed and said, ‘Not really… but also not not trying.’ It lingered in my mind all day. And suddenly, almost playfully, I thought: What if I just take a test? It felt ridiculous. Only two months after a miscarriage, what were the chances?” she wrote.
“When the result appeared, I froze. Two lines. The world went silent,” she added.
For women who have experienced loss, that moment of seeing a positive test again carries a weight that others may not fully understand. It’s not pure joy—it’s joy intertwined with fear, hope shadowed by memory.
“To my biggest surprise, and the most unexpected Christmas gift, I was pregnant again!! I felt an immense amount of joy and happiness, but the thing with experiencing a loss before is that it shapes you for any future pregnancy,” Vloet continued.
Vloet’s words articulate something profound about pregnancy after loss—the way previous heartbreak changes everything that comes after. That protective instinct to guard your heart, even as it fills with hope.
“There is that quiet voice that whispers: What if? Don’t celebrate too early. You never know. Still, I let myself hope: Maybe this was our rainbow baby!!” she wrote.
The term “rainbow baby”—a child born after a pregnancy loss—carries deep meaning for families who have experienced this kind of grief. It represents hope after the storm, light after darkness.
For Vloet, who is married to Max Ando-Hirsh, this pregnancy represented that possibility of healing.
Vloet is breaking the silence behind pregnancy loss
On Feb. 8, Vloet posted a TikTok video confirming that she was nine weeks pregnant when she lost the baby.
In her video, Vloet opened up about how pregnancy has taught her the importance of slowing down and how the loss has her questioning and losing trust in her body. This feeling—of your body betraying you, of losing faith in something so fundamental—resonates deeply with many women navigating fertility challenges.
But perhaps most importantly, she wanted women to know that they’re not alone.
“That’s why I believe we need to talk about miscarriage more,” she said in the video. “Not to fix the pain, but to release the shame. Because silence convinces women they’re alone — and we’re not. We’re often just suffering in different rooms.”
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These words cut to the heart of why sharing these experiences matters. When we don’t talk about pregnancy loss, women internalize their grief, wondering if something is wrong with them, feeling isolated in what is actually a shared human experience.
“Grieving is hard, even when it’s for something that was never fully there,” she added in the video.
This acknowledgment—that grief is valid even for a pregnancy that ended early—offers permission that many women need to hear.
The numbers tell a story of shared experience
In the caption of her TikTok video, Vloet shared a statistic that may bring both comfort and surprise to those who feel alone in their experience.
“Unfortunately, 1 in 4 pregnancies ends in miscarriage. That number feels shockingly high and it means so many women are going through this in silence, often feeling alone in something that is far more common than we realize,” she wrote.
@sanne It was so hard losing the baby at 9 weeks after so much uncertainty for weeks. I am trying to focus on the little glimmers in life that bring me joy and make me feel some what normal. Grieving is hard and grieving needs time. Unfortunately, 1 in 4 pregnancies ends in miscarriage. That number feels shockingly high and it means so many women are going through this in silence, often feeling alone in something that is far more common than we realize. If you have ever gone through this, I just want you to know, you are not alone.🤍 #pregnancyloss #miscarriage ♬ original sound - Sanne Vloet
According to the Cleveland Clinic, “between 10% and 20% of all known pregnancies end in miscarriage,” with a majority of them (80%) happening within the first three months of pregnancy.
These statistics reveal an important truth: if you’ve experienced pregnancy loss, you are far from alone.
In any gathering of women, in any workplace, in any community—there are others who understand this particular grief, even if they’ve never spoken of it.
What is a silent miscarriage?
Vloet’s pregnancy loss comes just four months after she experienced a similar loss.
On Oct. 12, the fitness influencer took to Instagram to share that she suffered a “silent miscarriage” at around eight weeks pregnant.
A silent miscarriage, also known as a missed miscarriage, “is one where the baby has died or not developed, but has not been physically miscarried,” according to The Miscarriage Association.
This type of loss can be particularly disorienting. Without the physical signs that something is wrong, women may continue feeling pregnant, continue hoping, only to learn at an ultrasound appointment that the pregnancy has ended.
The disconnect between what your body seems to be telling you and the reality can shake your trust in yourself profoundly.
“Probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through and shared. There are truly no words to describe how I feel… and no woman should ever have to experience this kind of loss,” Vloet wrote in the caption of her October post.
She shared that there was a heartbeat at her six-week scan, but had a “deep gut feeling that something wasn’t right” by the eight-week mark.
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“I’m sharing this because I know how common this is, yet how isolating it can feel. So many women go through this in silence, and if you’re one of them, I hope this reminds you that you’re not alone,” she wrote in her October caption.
